The story of my awakening - long version



Hi, my name is Natasa Stojanovic. I help you heartful leaders, awakening entrepreneurs, inspired individuals, conscious parents and illuminating lightworkers to activate your highest purpose and healing, so you can live your most meaningful, vital and inspiring life.

This is my contribution to building a New Earth, a world of deep connection, respect, peace and communion with each other and Mother Earth.


It lights me up to inspire, share, open my heart and bring that amazing light and love, which is available to all of us, into my daily life, and to assist you in doing the same.


But I haven't always been the person I am today.


I have decided to share the story of my awakening here, in order to inspire you to what else is possible.



The beginnings


Even though from a very young age I was interested in healing and how life "really works", I did not grow up in a supportive environment for the empathic and highly sensitive being I was. Through early childhood experiences and trauma I learnt to suppress my feelings, sensations and true desires, like many of us did at a very early age.


I learnt not to honor myself but to adapt. Too many times I had experienced myself as powerless in order to believe differently.


Growing up in a family of self declared atheists, I learnt very early on that I was alone and that there was no universe to hold my back.


Even though it took me decades to come to peace with source, I inherited the desire to explore healing, energy and consciousness and followed that ever since I can remember.

Also, from early childhood I had a great passion for the ocean, her beings, her energy. And this passion stayed with me until today, and should become a driving force throughout different phases of my life.

At the age of 21, I found myself in an unhealthy, co-dependent and emotionally abusive relationship. I had insomnia to the point that I was waking up 7 times a night, gained weight and experienced a series of unclear symptoms. I did not dare to talk about it, and everyone was waiting for us to get married. Luckily we never did.

It took me 6 years to gather my power and break free.

In 1999 I finished my University degree as a Master of Arts in Economy and Ecology and took a leap.

Following my heart, I transitioned the relationship. left my apartment, sold my car and moved to the Red Sea to follow my passion for the ocean. After a couple of months, I started working as a diving instructor and spent 3 wonderful years at the Red Sea. My physical symptoms disappeared almost completely.

Experiencing Mind body connection and the healing power of the ocean

Being a diving instructor and guiding diving safaris allowed me to experience the healing power of the ocean. The most impressive healing that I have been blessed to witness was a young man who joined on a diving safari. He had severe insomnia and was suffering from post traumatic stress, and on that safari he slept through the night for the first time after years and years of waking up every 1-2 hours, every night!


There were many miracles like people moving through fear, releasing fight or flight, stilling their minds, filing up with life force, or simply entering the water angry and coming out happy and relaxed. Till today, I am in awe about the gifts the ocean has for us.

I started Free Diving (Apnea) and I discovered Mind Body Connection. I learnt about the power of the mind, the power of relaxation, the power of breath and how my emotional state immediately affected my body. In Free diving you cannot fool your body, no matter how hard you try (and it is safer not to try!).

I was inspired to learn more. After 3 years in Israel I moved back to Switzerland. I studied Coaching, NLP, Energy Psychology, Psychoneuroimmunology, Epigenetic and Neuroscience. I became a business and life coach and a facilitator for experiential learning.


But I had forgotten that it was about BEING, not doing, and the years that followed were comfortable but felt empty inside.

Success and emptiness​


Over the following 12 years I became an expert in the field of leadership and team development, stress reduction and burnout prevention. With my private clients, who mainly came for personal reasons, I was applying my skills as an energy psychology practitioner and trainer, and mind body tools.

I kept those two worlds separate. In a way I was still hiding. And that limited my abilities to open up to my unique gifts and my greater purpose.


I had a good life, enough money for all I wanted to do, and I had a job I liked. I had a good relationship. And if I was honest, it was anything but fulfilling.

On some level I knew there was more to life than what I was experiencing, but I suppressed it.

My energy started depleting, not because I worked too much, but because I denied my calling, my purpose. My heart was closed and I was not stepping up for myself. I was hiding my truth.

I could often feel that emptiness in my clients, too.

They lived in a world where being rational was more important than being empathic, and achievement was valued higher than connection and love.

Their true desires were buried under constant adaptation to an ever changing world, under the pressure to deliver, to do it right, to be the most successful, or simply to be productive.


All they had learnt was to shut down and keep going.

Just like me.

Just like many of us.


The dark night of my soul - the initiation

After 12 years in this job, life forced me to stop.

A traumatic experience literally shattered everything I had ever believed in. I lost the ground under my feet and experienced depression for the first time in my life. I moved through depression in around 4 months, applying all the energy work and mind body tools I knew. I was disillusioned, confused, still full of resentment and caught in the drama. And I felt lonely.


At some point, I was so fed up with the way my life went, that I asked the universe to finally send me my master who I could learn the secrets of life from. I had always imagined to find that "master", that enlightened teacher with a white beard and still vital like the great qigong masters, unraveling the secrets of life for me. It was only natural for me to finally call out for "him".

Two months later I was pregnant. I knew I was going to be a single mum right away. Luckily at that point I did not know that I would not only be without support in pregnancy, but that I would be a single parent 24 hours a day, 7 days a week for years. No weekends. No nights off. No exceptions.

Ask, and you are given.....Little did I know that this was my awakening and that my true master had arrived.

By the time my son was around 3 years old, I had almost reached the point of burnout. I had given up my own well being for my son, wanting to be the best, most conscious and most loving mum, forgetting about myself completely.

I experienced constant fatigue, a lot of digestion problems, thyroid problems, constantly recurring infections and more. I was sick half of the time, I became impatient with my son, I was overwhelmed.

Trying hard to heal - the journey

By continuing my emotional healing work, learning to take care of myself and gradually changing my lifestyle, I started feeling better to the point that I could get through the day without suffering.



I got back on my feet again, but "it worked" only to a certain point.

Even though some of my lab results improved to the point that I was ok to move on, and I had a consistent routine of movement, meditation and relaxation, I was still not feeling really vital, I had lost that deep feeling of joy that I remembered having felt in my early years.

I was still caught in that consciousness of having to fix and solve, trying to solve my challenges from the consciousness which created them. Something was missing.

One thing that constantly made me cry was when I heard people talk about purpose, about following their hearts, finding their mission in life.

I thought it had to do with my passion for the ocean and my wish to find that place where I would live, right at the sea, with a beautiful community of like minded people, where I would work in my healing center (for a lack of a better word), at and with the ocean.


I set out with my son to travel, to follow that burning desire. I was hoping to find the place where I wanted to settle. But nowhere felt home. No opportunities showed themselves. I did not meet the people I was hoping for.

Still, I knew, there was something there for me in this longing, even though I was not ready to access it.


Awakening - walking through the portal of my heart


What truly lead me on the path of awakening and true healing on every level is the love for and from my beautiful son, this amazing being of light who was (and still is) mirroring my consciousness and vibration every single day.

I realized that if I wanted to meet him in love, I needed to love myself.

This is when my journey lead me to the power of my heart.

Over time, my seeking for health and solutions had turned into a deeper calling for true healing and living from my heart, for embodying a deeper consciousness of who I truly was, which on some level I knew was love and above.


I started letting go of being busy with what I thought my life should look like, of fixing, curing and changing. I embarked on a true healing journey that went deeper than anything I could ever have imagined.


I started embracing all of who I truly am, and stepping into my power and sovereignty. I started loving myself unconditionally, all I am with no exception. And I started seeing the beauty of who I was and how everything was perfect, exactly the way it was.


That is when I truly started healing.

As my body started recovering, my heart lead me further. Through opening and activating my heart, I awakened to my spiritual gifts beyond what I thought was possible. I awakened to the multidimensional being that I am, learnt to connect to higher consciousness, and my intuitive gifts suddenly started emerging in powerful ways.

At some point, light language and sound healing started coming through, a gift which allows me to support others in their healing and heart activation.


My life has shifted in ways I would never have imagined and that is hard to describe.

I am definitely not the same person that I used to be, even a year ago.

I know that my path is ever unfolding. My connection to the Ocean, Mother Earth and all beings has lead me to a purpose beyond my own dreams.

It lights me up to support women and men to open their hearts and step into their true power of who they came here to be. And to guide them to learn more about how to be the change they want to see in their lives and in the world.

Are you ready to fall in love with yourself and your life? I am happy to co-create with you.

You can reach out to me by visiting my website, connecting with me on facebook or scheduling a free chat to see how I can best support you.

I am looking forward to connecting with you from heart to heart!

Much love,

Natasa

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